Now that school was finally over, I had pushed my woes about my struggle with procrastination to the back of my head until a couple of nights ago. On one of my usual spirals into the depths of Youtube, I stumbled upon this Ted Talk. In it, Tim Urban gives us a witty and insightful talk about his own experience with procrastination and how he understands the difference between a person who procrastinates, and one who doesn't. There were many great moments in this talk, but one of the things that stuck out to me the most was his ending - procrastinating on things without a deadline.
After watching this video, it hit me. I wasn't procrastinating for the sake of not wanting to study - no, it was something deeper than that. I was procrastinating in thinking about the future. By swamping myself with schoolwork, it left me no time to think about whats ahead. Hard as it was to admit, I didn't want to plan for the future because I was afraid nothing would go to plan. Essentially, it was a fear of failure and the unknown that was holding me back from doing anything, and it had camouflaged itself in the form of procrastination. Knowing that any decisions I made now could have repercussions in the future was holding me back from even starting
The first step of solving any problem is admitting there is a problem. Now that I've been able to do so, I know for certain I can conquer this bump in my path as I head into the future. I urge anyone whose been having problems with procrastination to look at themselves and try and understand why you procrastinate. Time is always ticking.